Aug 28, 2017

I really wish he would understand we are happy with him. He makes me smile a lot, helps me keep my emotions in check. My depression has been going down with him.
He feels as if he isn't all I want and need. In truth he is. But he isn't ready yet. And I will wait for him.
He shouldn't be feeling bad at all. I understand how it is.
With him I found out I have different sides. I have the main me, Jasmin. Then I have babygirl who is the innocent part of me. Mistress who is the naughty side of me. Princess who is the playful side of me. Mommy who is the mothering side of me. And kitty is the side of me who loves cuddles.
Without him I would have never found out about the sides of me. I would have been so depressed if I never met him. I would be sleeping all day and barely eating.
I am so happy I have him in my life. He is everything I have always wanted and more. I just wish he would see that.
I want to show him that he is important. But we are really never alone, so we have to be very careful so we don't get caught.
So I don't do a lot of what I want to do. I don't show him a lot of how I feel for him.
I am going to try everytime I can to show him what he means to us.