Sep 9, 2017

Why do I keep hiding my feelings? Why do I keep making sure that I keep all my emotions are in check?
I feel as if I tell D, I make him sad and worry so much. I always feel so bad after I do. I know he cares about me.
I am used to having no one care for me. It is different with him. I am happier with him but when I am at home my thoughts are much darker because of my family.
I just want to move out. No scratch that I just want someone to love me.
I am afraid that will never happen. I am afraid that D will never want me. I am afraid just one day he will tell me to leave. He has become my rock.
I don't tell him what I want or need. He shouldn't worry about it.
He already has a lot on his plate.
I am just a speck of nothing.
I love him, I really do. I care for him so much.
I worry about him.
He is my everything.