Sep 1, 2017

It's getting hard. To keep my sadness locked away when all I want to do is cry. At times I feel so lonely. I can't tell him that then he will get sad about it. I don't want him to feel sad about it.
That is just how I am. I am a sad, lonely, fat girl. I keep a lot of thoughts in my mind. Away from everyone.
I feel like everything that comes out of my mouth is wrong and bad. I have been staying more and more quiet each day. But no one notices it.
I feel like I want to cry right now. But it doesn't matter. If I cry what does it help? I am still broken. I am still unwanted. I am still just nothing.
That is all I ever am. I love him, I do. But he feels bad about little things and I don't like making him sad. I feel worse whenever I make him sad.