Nov 5, 2017

I want to tell D how I am feeling. But I am not important so I don't tell him.
I feel sad, unwanted, at times lonely. I feel as if I bother people as if I am a troublemaker.
I can't tell him. He shouldn't worry about me.
I love him. I do. But lately, I have been thinking bad things about myself.
I am unworthy of love. I don't deserve happiness. I am nothing. I shouldn't be alive. Etc.
It gets worse at certain times. But he doesn't notice. At least I hope he doesn't notice.