Some thoughts of mine

So lately I have been thinking. Some bad things, some good things. Some are fears of mine and some are dreams of mine.
Like a fear I have been having lately is that what if this is all a dream, My boyfriend and I, what if one day he realize's that he wants to go back to his ex-wife. What if he tells me he never really did love me, that he was just using me. It goes around and around in my head, I can't tell him because I am afraid it may be true and if it isn't true then it can hurt him.
My dreams are usually the same they have been, I still want to be a singer, but I have stage fright. To me my voice sucks and that I need to work on it more. But I still haven't lost the dream of becoming a singer.
I still draw a lot, but right now I haven't because I am so stressed and tired.
My mind always has a million and 1 things going through it. This blog is the only way I can get all of it out in one place. To be honest, I know some people think this blog sucks. But I didn't create it for them, I created it so I can get things off my chest, and so if someone is going through the same thing, then they know they are not alone.