My thoughts

My sister just told me she hopes I die.
I mean honestly, it seems like a good idea. I lost the person I love, I am barely talking to people.
Or maybe I can just start cutting myself. I need someone to talk to. He is the only one who I can trust and tell everything to. But I lost him so I can't anymore.
I hate myself, I know I am fat, ugly, worthless. I am everything bad. He made me believe I'm not. I only heard his voice telling me I am perfect, that I am beautiful and I started to believe it. But now that he is gone I am worse. Why can't I find someone to love.